Saturday, June 30, 2007
my computer is so beyond hope. when i switch it on it starts beeping/blacks out/goes to windows then hang (even the mouse cursor doesnt move). im too lazy to even call the technician coz he just came 5 days ago.there's some dessert show on tv. the desserts in taiwan look so yummy
Friday, June 29, 2007
this morning i was feeling very moody and sulking at home. until liuwen smsed me to go out to accompany her to repair her computer!anyway the service centre was at such a niao-bu-sheng-dan place (some ulu place in bukit merah) we took so long to reach there. i think they are quite inefficient actually, there are only three counters and they actually combine the collection and service counters, which just means more inefficiency la. we reached the place at abt 3.30 and left at abt 5.30; nearly died of boredom waiting.
then during which the computer is under repair, lw and i went downstairs to while away the time, and then we had to go back up coz some kind lady told us the directions to the nearest niao-not-so-bu-sheng-dan place WAS ONE KILOMETRE AWAY (she knew coz she was actually kind enough to take out a map and measure the distance!). it was so not worth the effort esp when that place has only ntuc and the library -.-
the service centre had some surfer's corner (er made up of two laptops). we wanted to watch a movie after that so checked out the timings, but turned out the movies available are either not interesting or we have watched them b4.
so waited and waited and stoned and chatted and laughed until the staff closed all the lights (coz they are supposed to go off at 5pm). finally collected her laptop. the basic service fee was actually more than the actual repair fee.
went to eat dinner with her and then i went alone to buy things at tm.
closing down sales at metro was just...crazy btw. everyone's trying out shoes in all the walkable passages and tossing them about. and it's so funny, they actually have gigantic metro yellow shopping bags for you to put a lot of things inside , so that it's easier than holding them. haha
enough of my day ba.
i wonder how my tmr will be like... sometimes loneliness can be so overwhelming it makes me feel all awful.
觉得我的生活很空虚, 没意思，真是没了也罢。 哎，为什么会这样.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
chem exam was such a big joke btw. hahahwow my blog has 600 posts already. happy 600th-post birthday!
the cake so cute leh. haha.
okay instead of studying maths im here drawing some lame stuff.
i am just thinking about tmr when the exams have ended... everyone will be so happy and stuff. and then i realise i have no after-school plans coz i have nobody to celebrate the end of the exams with. :( everyone will be going out to celebrate then i will be going home and feeling like a loser.
not much to look forward to.
sigh at least there's a short holiday after that. nowadays i dont even feel like going to school because i dont fit in anywhere.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
i want to scream.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
so tired coz i woke up at 8.30am today. dunno how im going to wake up at 6am when school reopens.my revision for physics exam today consists of looking for the notes, period. haha oh no.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
was doing maths. aiya stuck again didnt get the answers :(haha im pretending that my maths exam is tmr, so that i will work harder today. somehow worked coz i studied on average 30min for every hour in the afternoon.
okay that's pretty amazing for me. im easily distracted hahaa
Saturday, June 16, 2007
apparently im supposed to read the econs notes in order. hope thats the reason why i didnt understand it.im sad. that feeling just comes, kind of unstoppable. haha im feeling sad because of rather selfish reasons.
is it selfish to wish for more love, care and concern from the pple around me?
i can be incredibly selfish.
i feel lonely. will tell you why if i manage to express it properly one day. the exact words appeared in my mind for one whole min, and they felt so right and totally reflects my thoughts
but by the time i get here they disappeared. haha
actually i have always wondered
is there anyone who truly want my company?
do they want me along because they asked my friends, and it would be impolite to not ask me?
haha then again, im afraid of knowing the answer.
there are times when i wonder if unconditional love can really exist in the world; im starting to get skceptical. not talking about the love between that of a parent and child (im quite sure that can be unconditional), but between a guy and a girl. even when i watch dramas and books i watch about pple changing their minds about their love. feelings change, relationships can turn sour, nothing is forever...
and that's so disappointing, isnt it :(
wasted >20 min typing and editing this entry, in the end i gain nothing (sadness didnt go away) except feeling emptier than ever. because no faith in my life, no faith in love, and also im feeling hungry. haha
i suspect im a little depressed, but then the next moment im amused by myself again. haha it's kind of weird.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
today i went out with eunice, felicia, and felicia's mum. haha it was a last min thing because feli and company only asked me in the evening. i was SO desperate to go out i felt so excited.haha first time leh, must record down.
then went to ps to walk around. nothing much la, they bought things and went crazy over some stuff. i started wondering if im abnormal coz im not crazy about anything. ok, maybe for fruits basket a long time ago, but currently nothing that im crazy about.
the highlight of the day was that we went gelare to eat waffles, and i simply love the tiramisu ice cream! yummy yummy :P
haha and i cant believe myself; im watching this show with spastic actors and looks silly and im still watching it and think it's nice. it's called wei xiao pasta LOL.
bye all
Monday, June 04, 2007
last tues i went out on a movie with a guy...my brother lol.
watched spiderman3 for the second time, like haha. coz i agreed a long time ago, and kind sisters keep their promises. my bro is such a greedy pig, and with his greedy sis we finished all the snacks we bought. hahaha.
then last thurs i went with qianwei to support qien in her dance concert. we bought a nice sunflower for her; aha sunflowers are so cute. both qianwei and i were complaining non-stop about going to nus ucc because when you live in pasir ris, nus is like miles and miles away.
haha then when we got to clementi we spent so long figuring out the bus to take to nus that we ended up taking the same bus as qien's family. (which was half an hour ltr)
the world is like super small, i saw about 8 of my 4f ex-classmates. like :S. i dont dislike them, really, but i just dont want them to see me. haha.
the dance concert was like, wow really really good. though i dont really like the dance alumni items actually, but the tango one was superb. about 10 dances, all so captivating. $15 bucks quite worth it (though it would still be much preferred if the place is at some less ulu place hahah)
then can you believe it, the rest of my holidays were spent at home. nope i didnt study, like AHHH. i gave up on econs after reading like 10 pgs of theory of income or whatever it is called, and then got too bored that i refuse to continue. it's such a PAIN to go through. my mum comments EVERYDAY that sooner or later i will get too fat to get out of the door. and that we are so lucky we can lie on the bed the whole day and not move. and she also tries to persuade me to go to the supermarket with her, which is a failed attempt of course. hahahah
Sunday, June 03, 2007
new skin. no more hearts, no more valentine...this designer's skins are super cool in my opinion.
nothing in my past 2 weeks is worth mentioning, so i shall spare you the agony of reading about boring depressing stuff.
haha did i mention i totally hate feeling like a loser? but i am a loser and i dunno how to not be one.
i went to blogskins.com and saw a lot of really nice skins...but i thought, hey i cant use them because they are so not me.
come to think of it, it's so... stupid! im setting a mold for myself, but the problem is, i hate this mold that i have made. i know if im given a choice to relive my life... i wouldnt want to live like this.