did a whole lot of pw research. my gosh, that thing never ends.
looked for the importance of publicity. found some and was very happy.
ate some awful lunch and went back to staring at the computer screen.
did the interview transcript.
read a few EOMs and concluded that mine is rather lousy. Got a few phonecalls and went back to research for teachers supporting CIP stuff.
msn-ed a bit and went back to research. couldnt find much. made do with some interact club website which says that the teacher liked being in-charge of interact club's activities. presumed that he is interested in voluntary projects too.
msn-ed a bit and went back to research.
tried finding evidence that care and concern to old folks can improve their state of depression. Didn't work. But quite a lot of articles were churned up saying that taking care of animals can help their depression. SIGH.
msn-ed a bit. listened to a few songs.
gave up on research and the hope of ever finding something useful. SIGH.
bye. im going to sleep.
Monday, August 21, 2006
I think I am a jinx to computers, or at least they are jinxes to me. Computers never seemed to last for one year without facing one problem or another. Dunno why my dearest HP computer suddenly installed/kena some weird spyware/virus/something-that is-VERY-IRRITATING that has slowed down my computer by say ten times. I now cannot surf the net as carefreely as usual.
Is this a test to test my patience? Oh well.
I think I am going to kick the cpu, bang my keyboard, slam my mouse on the table and step on my monitor screen REAL SOON. oh my it lags so much that even as I type the words dont appear smoothly.
I just closed a song window and the music continued playing for ten seconds. Now you get what I mean when i say it is ten times slower than usual?
I wanted to post a picture of my computer's dire state, but too bad the picture uploader JAMMED.
And it is ridiculous when my virus program pops up a window like every minute or so, telling me it has denied access to some suspected files again. That doesn't help in the slightest since it only JAMMED my computer FURTHURE MORE THAN IT IS JAMMED.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
gahhhh its already 5.30 and I am still here. :(
It is quite terrible to suddenly realise that everyone has really grown up with you yourself lagging behind, because right now I am feeling that.
Sometimes I feel so friend-less. Yeah I know I have some really good friends, but then ever since we aren't in the same school anymore, things sort of changed. It just cannot be helped. I am kind of out of their lives already, and I don't know what I can do about it. Meeting up has become so difficult, and then part of me is afraid to find out that they have changed.
I mean just look at Chunying. We are in the same school, and we don't even have much chances to talk anymore. Then suddenly she felt like the sec1 LCY again, that person who only cared about money and couldn't really be bothered with her friends. That LCY whom I didnt exactly liked very much. haha.
Asked Siying if she wants to meet up at Teachers' Day, she seems enthu about receiving my sms, but cannot give me a reply yet. Part of me wondered if she is ever going to reply me. For gdness' sake, I haven't seen her since...that day when I saw her on the bus. I haven't sat down for a long chat with her since last year!
Qien Qianwei....er. It is depressing to think of them. We don't even talk on msn anymore. My sister asked me why I clicked on Qien and didn't talk to her (I clicked on her to look at her dp) and it struck me that I haven't talked to her for a very long time indeed.
I hate this. It is already bad enough that I have little very good/best friends, and then I am losing touch with them
Then again, everyone's so busy with their own lives and coping with JC sucky days that I doubt they have time for me. Maybe I should be a little more enthu and organise an outing some time (yeah, like when?)
And after coming to VJ for 8.5 months, I am even more deeply convinced that the whole world is just made up of superficiality. oh I nearly forgot. And hypocrisy of course. It all comes down to looks, brands, and acting nice.
haha or perhaps I am saying all this because I am unhappy that I have none of those. I don't know. But it seems to me that those are all it matters, and that's sad.
Oh my, I just heard the newspaper man walk past my corridor.
Hmm. 5.53am now, and I didn't feel better after blogging. All I have is a headache and the tea's still keeping me awake.
Only conclusion I have reached: No point blogging about all these since it won't change anything anyway.
I guess the most reason for this post is to show pple that I actually think of my life you know, and most certainly do not only just spend my days lazing about and daydreaming. haha!
oh my its nearly five. I will never ever drink tea at 8pm again.
Oh yeah and I did a whole lot of things in my weekends, like sleeping for 14 hours, finishing a drama (which was rather boring), and blah.
hmm. suddenly i dont feel like blogging about myself anymore. my life is boring.
so bye
Saturday, August 12, 2006
yay pw's cancelled!! yay yay! :D :D :D
haha my mum has been saying I am fat everyday. last time she says I am still ok, but now she comments on my laziness (when she isn't much better herself) and how I sit around and does nothing.
quite true actually. haha
anyway I am overjoyed that my sunday is going to be nice. haha!
stomach's growling again. bad bad sign.
aiyo. have I mentioned this? I hate PW!
Writing parts of the WR only made me realise all the more that my vocab is limited, and my sentence structure really got big problem. At least cambridge encourages us to use simple English, which I of course welcome with big open arms.
Just now received an sms which got me a bit hopeful for a while.
DH: Do you tink derez a nid to meet up tml?
Me: er. actually i was tinking abt it just now and i wondered if there is anything to discuss. if u tink we need to sit down and talk then have a meeting tmr lo
but actually I am secretly chanting cancel cancel CANCEL!!!
aiyo really la. my life is bad enough, dont make me see my pw "MATES" (ho, like real) on a nice nice nice nice nice Sunday morning. It will only make my precious weekend unnice. If we really need to meet, it is 10 am!
10 am!! so early :(
he haven't come online yet, so i can't ask him abt tmr. sigh.
will try to convince him that there is really nothing to discuss for pw already, so he will just cancel it. haha.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
sometimes life becomes more tiring than ever when things get very complicated.
Just in case you want to laugh at me. :)
the colour combi sucks, but bear with it lol.
my name is
waibin
the pathetic girl who has become part of the wall.